My Beta Day

It was actually Thursday. I just wanted to gather my thought before I posted. As you may have figured it wasn't good news. It came back at less than 2 which is definately not pregnant.
I was very confused by the signs my body was giving. I wanted so bad for this transfer to work. I think more than I had ever wanted one to result in a pregnancy. Every other time we had always had a plan B if it didn't work but this time there was no plan B. This transfer was only meant to be a one time thing. I wasn't expecting anything but success. But I did my best and the embie didn't stick.
I talked with Bill & Bill after Anita had called and given them the results. They were so great. I am sure they were disappointed but they have two beautiful babies that lessened the hurt. I had so much support from them, Lisa (my IM) and from all my friends IRL and online that my disappointment was lessend as well. And if you don't believe how great they are here is what they wrote on my Facebook page.

"Making babies with you, Erica, over the last three years has been wonderful. You, Nick, and the girls, (& your Mom) have become family to us. We love you. We are so grateful for the experiences we've shared with you and the little babies you carried for us. We appreciate everyone in your life who supports you. It is nice to see all the well-wishers. We've had so much fun....we're going to have to get together again real soon. XOXO. The Bills"

I am so glad that I had the chance to meet them and carry the twins. I'm sure that they will be in our lives for a long time and for that I am greatful.