House hunting

Today we went to look at 3 houses. The first was near Bailey's school. It has 3 bedrooms which is what we need. The backyard was a bit small but there was plenty of space inside so it made up for the lack of yard. The next was down the road a bit but still in the school district we want. It has 3 bedrooms and a separate family room/living room. The layout works really well and it has a huge backyard. It reminded Nick and I both of the houses we grew up in. The third house was looking good when we drove up but then the realtor couldn't find the lock box. She called the listing agent and told her that it was missing and then she informed us that someone had taken it and she hadn't come to replace it. Apparently selling the house wasn't a top priority for her.
So we saw two houses and put an offer on one of them. We already have an offer on another house just waiting to see if it is going to be approved. We upped that offer just because it is in a great location, walking distance to the elementary school and it has a pool. We can update things how we want instead of having to live with carpet and windows and appliances that were chosen by the previous owner. It's also about $15,000 less than the second house we put an offer on.
Now we wait and see. They are supposed to give us an answer by May 20th but I'm hoping it's sooner. It would be nice for Nick to get a great birthday present and me to get a great Mother's Day gift. A new home!

My weekend

My best friend from high school is getting married. She stuck with me through my 1st pregnancy and all the aftermath. When we moved away we still kept in touch, as much as we could have being 2000 miles apart.


Well this past weekend was her bachelorette party. Her sister put together a great weekend down in Palm Dessert. I think my weekend started a bit earlier than others (3am on Friday morning) but who could complain when we were going to relax and have fun all weekend. Like i said I was up at 3am to start the drive to Visalia. I was picking up K & M at 6. We left on time, who can say that when you are getting 3 girls together? We drove to Ontario to pick up two more girls, K's friends from college. Then on to the resort. OMG! This thing was huge. It was on a golf course, and had over 2000 rooms, 5 pools, a lake and a spa. Our rooms were nice too.

Three more girls came during the afternoon. We sat by the pool, tried to get a bit of color, didn't work too well. And then the real fun started. Mixed drinks until we were all ready for dinner and then we headed to the Lobby Bar. We had a drink and then went out for pizza. We were a bit crazy at the pizza place and the kids kept looking at up like they were scared, lol. I guess they didn't see 8 buzzed girls too often. Then we headed to the club at the hotel. Can we say time to let loose. We danced until we were soaked. There we so many people in there I'm guessing that it was about 100 degrees inside. It was time to go back to the room but we weren't tired so four of us went back to the lobby and hung out just talking. A couple of guys came and sat with us and it's funny to talk to drunk people. They were so loud and made no sense. But we still had a good time.

The next morning was time for our massage. We got to the spa with a few minutes to spare so we sat in the steam room. I now want one in my bathroom. I love it. It was the best prelude to the massage and also a good finish. So relaxed. Then it was back to the pool. This time I did manage to get some color although it was a bit red. We were down there for about six hours before we decided to head to the room and get ready for Mexican food :0 Dinner was so much fun, especially since we each had a 16oz margarita. We shared some favorite times that will not be shared on here. And then headed back to the hotel. A few girls played some of the games M brought but I was not one of them. It was fun to watch especially since one of the objects was to get a guys undies.

Sunday was a unwind day. So we started with the breakfast buffet. No alcohol, I think the first meal without. We sat by the pool for about 2 hours waiting until checkout. Then it was time to go. B & N drove themselves so the left first. The the rest of us packed into my car. We dropped T off first. Then we headed to Ontario to drop off A & M. Our weekend was over. K, M & I all headed back to Visalia. Then I finished my drive home. I had a great time but I was sure glad to be back in my bed with my hubby.

My Beta Day

It was actually Thursday. I just wanted to gather my thought before I posted. As you may have figured it wasn't good news. It came back at less than 2 which is definately not pregnant.
I was very confused by the signs my body was giving. I wanted so bad for this transfer to work. I think more than I had ever wanted one to result in a pregnancy. Every other time we had always had a plan B if it didn't work but this time there was no plan B. This transfer was only meant to be a one time thing. I wasn't expecting anything but success. But I did my best and the embie didn't stick.
I talked with Bill & Bill after Anita had called and given them the results. They were so great. I am sure they were disappointed but they have two beautiful babies that lessened the hurt. I had so much support from them, Lisa (my IM) and from all my friends IRL and online that my disappointment was lessend as well. And if you don't believe how great they are here is what they wrote on my Facebook page.

"Making babies with you, Erica, over the last three years has been wonderful. You, Nick, and the girls, (& your Mom) have become family to us. We love you. We are so grateful for the experiences we've shared with you and the little babies you carried for us. We appreciate everyone in your life who supports you. It is nice to see all the well-wishers. We've had so much fun....we're going to have to get together again real soon. XOXO. The Bills"

I am so glad that I had the chance to meet them and carry the twins. I'm sure that they will be in our lives for a long time and for that I am greatful.

6.5dp5dt

Still a BFN. But technically I am only 11.5 days past ovulation and there is still a chance I will get a positive in the next few days. I am trying not to worry about it but it's hard not to.

UGH!

That's how I feel right now. I don't even think that word is meant to be a feeling.
A little backstory. Last year we moved to Modesto. It was supposed to be a temporary place because we were going to be moving to Chico when that restaurant was to open. Well things happened as they always do. Chico was a no go and here we are still in Modesto. Our lease, in this tiny two bedroom apt, expires at the end of the month. We don't have any place lined up to move to after that so we are stuck. And with that we have to pay an extra $200 a month.
Well we want to buy, but not something that we won't be able to rent if we have to move. We don't have the best of credit and it's hard to get a loan. So everybody keeps telling us to wait. If you know me, and most of you should if you are reading my blog, you know I'm not the most patient person. When I want something I want it now. It's just really frusturating.
And to top things off my body is ugh! I feel so bloated and crampy and pregnant. But still no BFP. Maybe (hopefully) Easter morning will be my day!

4.5dp5dt

I thought I saw two lines but i think my eyes were playing tricks on me. It's still very early and by this weekend I should know more. I have been extra tired and I don't feel like I'm getting sick so maybe it's just an early sign that this little one is snuggling right on in for the next nine months.

2.5dp5dt

Feeling a little crampy tonight. I am going to shoot up (progesterone only tonight) and then head off to bed. I hope this is a good sign. :)

The Horrid 2ww

Transfer was Monday the 6th at about 11:30am. We got there at 10:30 for blood draw and then to get set. All four of us (Bill, Bill, Nick and I) were in the room waiting, the office was crazy busy that morning, so we decided to play some cards. Gin it was. Well to make it interesting we added rules, like passing 4 cards to the left and 2 were wild. There were others but my vailumed brain makes it a bit hard to remember them all.
We had 5 remaining frozen embryos. Our plan was to thaw them all and transfer the best looking one. When they were thawed on Friday only 4 survived that first night. By Sunday we had 1 six cell, 2 five cell, and 1 four cell. Monday morning we only had one left. It looked beautiful and there were too many cells to count. So we transfered one great looking cell that will hopefully be a great looking baby in about 38 weeks.
I didn't get a chance to see my NC because of the busy-ness of the office but she called me later that afternoon. She said that all my levels were great and keep doing what I was doing. She asked about what we transfered and I let her know the whole story. She said that when they see agressive embryos that divide that quick those are the ones that tend to split. So we may get twins again after all.
I will have the final results on the 16th. But my POAS habit will be starting in about T-minus 32 hours. :)

The calm before the storm

9:50 pm and I am sitting in my hotel room in Santa Monica. We had a fun day. It started off with a 3 hour drive from Porterville. We checked into the hotel at 12:45 and got warm chocolate chip cookies. They sure do know how to make a hormonal woman feel good :) The guys and the twins got here a little after us and we went to lunch. We walked down the promonade and watched a bunch of street performers. Then everybody started to get tired and back to the hotel we came.
Well you can't have great weather and not swim, but you can't swim without swimsuits. So off to Target to buy the girls suits. A little hard to find for tourists, even with the garmin, but we made it back and headed out to the pool. The water was chilly but Penny did not seem to mind. She was bouncing around like crazy. She looked like a regular ol' guppie. Rex on the other hand wanted nothing to do with the water.
So out of the water and on to dinner. What a mess. That is all I will say. The twins fell asleep and the guys had to take their food to the room. We stayed and finished and now I am here.
Tomorrow is Tday. We should be getting the final call in the morning but all looks well. We will be transfering at 11am and then I will offically be in the 2ww. Well I hope that it does not last two weeks and that I get a nice BFP (big fat positive) about 5-6 days after tranfser. So stay tuned. You will be the first to know when I pee.

CD 13

Lining check today. For those that dont know it's an ultrasound with the infamous 'wenie wand'. The nurse gets all up close and personal with you, does her thing and leaves. At least my nurse talks to me and asks questions about our cycle so it's not too bad.
It was 8.4mm and triple striped, that's good. I had two follicles at less than 8mm, that's good too. I start my progesterone tonight and continue until 12 weeks of pregnancy. I also start taking baby asprin, not to sure what it does but I've taken it with every cycle. Maybe I'll ask about it on Monday.
So as of now Monday is for sure. We will know what time on Sunday.