Feeling Discouraged

Part of my New Year's resolution was to be healthier and to lose some weight. I have stuck to my guns and have not had soda since a few days before Jan 1. I would say about 99.5% of my drinking has been water ( I had a few cups of coffee at breakfast). I have been exercising almost daily, I didn't workout on Friday or Saturday last week because Nick was off and we went house hunting. But every other day since new years I have. I am watching what I eat and cutting down on snacking but I'm gaining weight!!!! UGH!
I am not sure if my body is working properly. I don't think it remembers all we learned in school. More calories out vs. coming in = weight loss. Not weight gain. I hope that I start seeing results soon or I will become more discouraged and resolve to be fat the rest of my life. Not really but it still sucks. I want my clothes to fit, I want to feel better and most of all I want to not look pregnant when I'm not.

Another good call

This one is on the surrogacy front. I spoke with the guys tonight. It was the call most surrogates who go with an agency don't have to deal with. Compensation. I knew the call was coming as we are getting close to having contracts drafted. At first it was a bit uncomfortable but then I remembered who i was talking to. We agreed on everything. It was so smooth. I just need to wait on the lawyer to send out the agreement so it can be signed. Then on to contracts. March is almost here and that means baby making time. WooHoo.

A Good Call

I just got off of the phone with a good friend. It's been almost 5 years since I've talked with him but we talked like it hadn't beeen that long. We grew up together, from P'ville, but we both probably wouldn't admit to it. Our live took us different ways but it's nice to still know where you came from, and that you still have friends from 'home'. I let him in on all the things I've done since the last time we talked. Can you believe he didn't know I was/am a surrogate? Well I hadn't made the decision 5 years ago.
It was a great talk. I guess that it was because I wow'd him and left him speechless, lol. I hope to do it again.

2009

This year is going to be productive if it kills me. I plan on loosing some weight, having a baby (no not mine), graduating from school (any at this point), and buying a house.
I made a couple of resolutions that I plan on keeping. They aren't to hard as I've done them both before just at different times. I have stopped drinking soda and will not color my hair at all this year. I hope that not drinking any soda will help with my goal of loosing some weight. And I just want to find out what color my hair is.
In March or early April I will be trying to get pregnant. The twins are in need of a little brother/sister and I have vowed to help. It's not a job, as 20/20 has portrayed. I could get more working at Target. I love feeling like I am making a difference in somebodies life. It's all euphoric kinda like the high you get from jumping out of a plane, although I have not done that so I wouldn't know from personal experience.
Graduating is also in the plan. I am 5 classes short of a BS but since Fresno State is pretty far and Stanislaus State doesn't have my major I may just go to MJC and get my AA so that when I can go back to get my BS I will only need 2 classes.
Now the big one. We, Nick and I, have been talking about buying a house. We aren't too sure about living in Modesto but we are sure that we are tired of moving around. We think that having a home and a neighborhood and friends will warm us up to the idea of here being a more permanent home. I have met a great group of ladies here, we have all been brought together by surrogacy. And I have a few childhood friends who live up this way. We are also close to SF and Sac, and our favorite area Napa. So things may be looking good for us this year.
We have 12 months and then I may come back to this post and see what was actually completed on my plan.