UGH!

That's how I feel right now. I don't even think that word is meant to be a feeling.
A little backstory. Last year we moved to Modesto. It was supposed to be a temporary place because we were going to be moving to Chico when that restaurant was to open. Well things happened as they always do. Chico was a no go and here we are still in Modesto. Our lease, in this tiny two bedroom apt, expires at the end of the month. We don't have any place lined up to move to after that so we are stuck. And with that we have to pay an extra $200 a month.
Well we want to buy, but not something that we won't be able to rent if we have to move. We don't have the best of credit and it's hard to get a loan. So everybody keeps telling us to wait. If you know me, and most of you should if you are reading my blog, you know I'm not the most patient person. When I want something I want it now. It's just really frusturating.
And to top things off my body is ugh! I feel so bloated and crampy and pregnant. But still no BFP. Maybe (hopefully) Easter morning will be my day!