Just Me

I am running on empty. I cant get myself out of this funk. Don't know when it started but it's there. I have been getting myself out of the apartment as much as possible. I have even visited with friends. But whenever I am by myself I just feel blah. No motivation at all. I am stuck not knowing what I want to do, where I want to be or sometimes even who I am.
Our move to Modesto was for Nick's job. Any other time we have moved it's been for Nick. I think maybe I am resenting that I have to uproot my life each time he say to. Nick has always had something waiting for him when we arrived at our new location. I had to start from scratch. I don't like change much and then it takes me a long time to adapt. This time it's taking longer than I would have liked it to. I want to do something during the day besides clean house.
I am thinking about taking some classes at the JC but that costs money that we don't have excess of. I have been very close to graduation twice. Both times we have moved. That makes this move even harder.
That's enough crying from me for now. Maybe just getting it out can help me figure out what to do. Who knows.